Alone in the darkness of the mind’s chaos-
drifting, sinking, struggling
against the weight of it
I weep, longing for words of comfort,
to share the awful truth
of the horror and pain
No one seeks the details of such a path,
this solitary walk into
the abyss of fear
To be on the other side is enough I am told
Just forget, move on to
the new unknown
I long to speak of it, the monster that hides
inside my soul in wait,
so thirsty, hungry
I think if I call its name, shining light
upon its twisted face
it might be appeased
Fluid, this dark cloak that envelops me,
tempting me to give up,
finding solace below
Yet I keep swimming, gasping for air
when I forget to breathe-
forget myself
Where is that self I knew so well mere
months ago, before
the world exploded?
People pat, people pray, people say
the magic words to
make it alright
It isn’t alright when my gut is full
of poisonous truth,
buried memories
No skeletons hiding in my closet,
for they lie buried-
ashes to ashes
Why did they all leave so soon,
without a goodbye,
leaving me to cry
this ocean of emotion and sorrow,
hoping that tomorrow
the forgetting comes.
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