Invisible/Poetry

 

Alone in the darkness of the mind’s chaos-

drifting, sinking, struggling

against the weight of it

I weep, longing for words of comfort,

to share the awful truth

of the horror and pain

No one seeks the details of such a path,

this solitary walk into

the abyss of fear

To be on the other side is enough I am told

Just forget, move on to

the new unknown

I long to speak of it, the monster that hides

inside my soul in wait,

so thirsty, hungry

I think if I call its name, shining light

upon its twisted face

it might be appeased

Fluid, this dark cloak that envelops me,

tempting me to give up,

finding solace below

Yet I keep swimming, gasping for air

when I forget to breathe-

forget myself

Where is that self I knew so well mere

months ago, before 

the world exploded?

People pat, people pray, people say

the magic words to

make it alright

It isn’t alright when my gut is full

of poisonous truth,

buried memories

No skeletons hiding in my closet,

for they lie buried-

ashes to ashes

Why did they all leave so soon, 

without a goodbye,

leaving me to cry

this ocean of emotion and sorrow,

hoping that tomorrow

the forgetting comes.

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