Monday, June 28, 2021



Alone in the darkness of the mind’s chaos-
drifting, sinking, struggling
against the weight of it

I weep, longing for words of comfort,
to share the awful truth
of the horror and pain

No one seeks the details of such a path,
this solitary walk into
the abyss of fear

To be on the other side is enough I am told
Just forget, move on to
the new unknown

I long to speak of it, the monster that hides
inside my soul in wait,
so thirsty, hungry

I think if I call its name, shining light
upon its twisted face
it might be appeased

Fluid, this dark cloak that envelops me,
tempting me to give up,
finding solace below

Yet I keep swimming, gasping for air
when I forget to breathe-
forget myself

Where is that self I knew so well mere
months ago, before 
the world exploded?

People pat, people pray, people say
the magic words to
make it alright

It isn’t alright when my gut is full
of poisonous truth,
buried memories

No skeletons hiding in my closet,
for they lie buried-
ashes to ashes

Why did they all leave so soon, 
without a goodbye,
leaving me to cry

this ocean of emotion and sorrow,
hoping that tomorrow
the forgetting comes.

CKP copyright 2021


  1. Oh, Cheryl. This is so powerful and so concerning.

  2. Thanks Dan. Sometimes it just has to bleed out. ๐Ÿงก

  3. Ride out the storm until forgetting comes. Be well Cheryl.

  4. HUGS, Cheryl. I'm holding on for four more years for legal reasons, and the kids are hoping I'll be able to hold on after that just because. I don't know what your particular pain is, but I'm here for you, if it would do any good to share. You can contact me through my web site. HUGS

    1. Thanks Marian, your words really are appreciated. I usually go along with the river’s flow but it seems this old fish is getting scarred along the way. But, like Nemo, I’ll just keep swimming. Hugs and thanks so much! ❤️

    2. PS I am always here for you as well. ๐Ÿค—

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    1. Thanks Mary. I’m doing better and hanging in. ๐Ÿค—


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